Finally, after 15 or so months, I get to feel the wind in my face. Unfortunately, it’s rather hot wind, but it’s still wind all the same.

Yeah, I was fortunate enough to be able to borrow a mate’s motorcycle. He’s not really using it at the moment, and I long to be able to travel via two-wheels again. So far, it’s a great experience. No doubt the vehicle needs some work to be done, notably the signals, but at least it’s ridable. The brakes need some tweaking too. I’m very much used to using the front brake, but this one isn’t very effective in bringing me to a standstill. So much so that I had a near miss this morning! That really woke me up. Thank goodness nothing serious happened.

At least for now, I need to get used to riding once more. It’s going to be fun times ahead! Yeah!

Sometimes, I do wonder if the way things are developing is simply an after-effect due to the fact that I was out fishing for such an extended period of time. That thought has crossed my mind many times already. And then, there’s the wonder that maybe, after seeing things the way I do, I just decide to compartmentalise my inner workings, in an effort to lessen the devastating effects should a result, one that is less than ideal, occur.

More often than not, I seem to think that it’s more of the latter than it is the former. Whether it’s good or bad, I do not know. Will I ever get out of it? Maybe; maybe not?

It’s almost like I’m able to separate myself from the emotion at will, and in doing so, feel indifferent about the situation? Heartless; inconsiderate? Maybe, depending on the circumstances. So, is this good? Or is this more bad than good, since I deny myself from experiencing the emotions present.

What significance does this have, if any?

Managed to get my air tickets booked a few days ago. Not my most desired trip, but it’s still a trip never-the-less. A short get-away for me thankfully.

Interestingly, I happened to overhear a rather interesting rumor in the office. Just hope it turns out the positive way.

It’s probably too early to proclaim that it’s official, but I guess that doesn’t mean that I cannot keep my hopes up. Well, the boss has already mentioned it, so that should be sufficient confirmation. Only question remains – when? How long will I have to wait? It’s been 5 months, something which is nothing short of eventful, but I guess it’s about time to leave it all and move on? Perhaps so.

These photos were taken at my office carpark.

Noticed anything peculiar about the vehicle?

That’s an interesting Austin. Most certainly too big to be a Mini. The engine capacity is bigger too, at 1300cc, if the tag on the front grille is referring to the engine size that is.

Any guesses for the first picture? It’s a left-hand drive vehicle.

21 Feb – 09 May

Don’t bother.

It’s a difficult decision that I have, whether to blog about certain issues or to keep silent. Perhaps even a private post would be good, for archiving purposes, and when I want to reflect back on the history.

I’ve not been very consistant with blogging too, with the one lone post every other week at best. I guess I’ve lost the touch / interest? Or perhaps my life is not exciting enough? Right now, it’s almost as good as me living out my existance. There has been a change, one which not many know about, for reasons which might be better kept to myself. I know the reason and I think I’ll want to keep it that way for the time being. Perhaps in the near future when the time is ripe.

I still believe that everything happens for a reason. I just don’t know it yet. I only hope that at the end of the day, I’ll come out of this having learnt valuable lessons, which will no doubt aid me in the future. Decisions were made before, and well things led to other things. There was no regret per se, but still, perhaps it could have been better handled, as always.

No point looking back and wishing for the sky to fall. Might as well look forward and wait for the sun rise.

It just feels as though all the stars and moon aligned to conspire to make things difficult for me. All on this one very day. Just because the past several weeks have been uneventful that they decided I should have some spice added.

As though the disruption of my plans wasn’t enough. Was considering getting out of the island for a couple of days over the long weekend. It’s a public holiday and I should have known better, but I didn’t actually get to making the arrangements until now, and I guess it’s not unexpected really. Almost everything is all fully booked. Yes, I should have known better, since I’ve been overseas so many times. I have my reasons, and apparently that didn’t go down well.

As if that wasn’t enough, a short fight with words broke out between a colleague and myself. I’m sure he meant well when he decided to point out some issues with the change I made. Of course, I was merely following instructions based on a discussion which I wasn’t present, and where there were documents signed by us and the client. So, I decided that it’s best to look for the person who asked me to do the changes, and then a bit of hell broke off.

That wasn’t the worst, it was just a little loud exchange of words. The next was just towards the end of the day. This time, it grew into a heated exchange of words, so much so that the office stopped and looked at us. It didn’t end well. I left early when I sensed my voice was breaking up.

Just one of those days, I guess.

Yes, the signs of neglect are showing. My first update in as many months; not good at all. Restarting this is not gonna be easy; just like how difficult it was for me when I restarted climbing a couple of years ago. Tough and not very rewarding at first.

Just two days back, I had a very enjoyable gathering. No surprises for guessing – one of the members is departing for an extended period. The food was not very spectacular – nothing to brag about. It was at a restaurant serving Thai cuisine. It was nice, except that the dishes were a little too spicy for my liking. As usual, these gatherings were for us to get updated on the ongoings of each other. About time too, since apparently one of us appears to be on his way to getting hitched! Interestingly, the “interrogation” session did not last very long. Good thing for him too. Anyway, I guess when our good friend feels comfortable introducing his partner, he’ll do so. In the meantime, we just have to wait and see.

The post dinner was good too, since a coffee joint was conveniently located just beside the restaurant. It was nice, just spending time with the gang.

Looks like I cannot really escape from going to India. Not much of a choice, since most of our projects are from that region anyway. At least it’s a rather short trip this time around, and if all goes well, I’ll be returning with some good news!

Only problem is that even before I’ve even boarded the plane, I’ve already forgotten to bring something with me! As usual …