Priorities, that’s what it always boils down to; it always does, without fail. The one thing which varies from person, from personality to personality, from character to character. Priorities are what dictates the actions of a person at any particular instance and differs with each passing time frame.

Just as a person enters different phases of life as time passes, the priorities change as well. What is of significance, are the priorities themselves. Sometimes, they get dropped. Sometimes, they get promoted. Sometimes, new ones come into the picture.

Just like opportunities, which many have likened to a door. Some are open, some are closed. What matters is the act of walking through it. Not all doors stay open all the time. When one door closes, another one opens. What’s difficult would be to recognise the open ones and their inherent benefits.

Put two and two together and things start to get a wee bit more complicated. On the one hand, there’s the window of opportunity. On the other hand, there’s the need to uphold the priorities. What happens then, when the opportunity and the priority disagree with each other?

What would you choose? Priority? Opportunity?

The opportunity being an almost once-in-a-lifetime chance for achieveing something great, something utterly worth the effort put in. One that is most certain to never come again, should it pass. The door may open again, but it’s something which you don’t normally bet on. For me, it’s an opportunity to make a change in the path I take. A possible side effect being a “wider” trail to walk on.

The priority is one which I have had in mind for years already. Something which I’ve been working towards all this while, and one which seems to close that it’ll be a total waste to simply let it go just like that. There was the thought of the priority and the opportunity being able to co-exist at the same time, but the way it looks to me, it’s chances are as remote as us being able to live on Mars in this lifetime.

As it turns out, the window of opportunity may have closed sooner than I have predicted. It may open again, but I highly doubt it. Naturally, the voice of reasoning will make an effort to make the decision seem as though it was the most logical and sensible one, as if all that happened were due to acts of fate. As always, it almost always seem the more logical and sensible one, considering the present situation and circumstances. It’s a sure-fire thing too, that whatever that appears to be logical now, would turn out to be an illogical one in the near future after events have unfolded.

Then again, I think it’s just a case of bad timing, plain and simple. I’m not totally 100% ready for the opportunity right now. Or rather, I’d much prefer to complete my goal first, before opening any doors.

I’d better not regret on this …